My journey began about 6 years ago. I married my sweetheart and decided to have a family shortly after. We were elated when we found out I was pregnant and devastated when we lost our beautiful, baby boy at 36 weeks into the pregnancy. I have never experienced such grief and heartache.
My husband and I desperately wanted to become pregnant again. We tried and tried, becoming more disheartened with each passing month. I noticed that my confidence began to decrease. I felt at odds with my body.
Thankfully, after what seemed to be a very long time, we were able to conceive.
While pregnant, I was super paranoid, and struggled when diagnosed with gestational diabetes. It took a lot of effort to keep my sugar levels stable. I was learning that diet and exercise were more important than I thought they were.
Well, I had a healthy, happy, baby girl and was so excited! I continued to eat healthy and when she was 6 months old I found out I was pregnant again! Although excited for another baby, my body was not up for the challenge. It was a hard pregnancy. It hurt to walk, it hurt to roll over in bed. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t exercise and on top of all that, I had a new baby to take care of. It was hard!
I made it through and had another healthy, happy, baby girl. So now my life is busy with two little ones! While I love being a mother, I began to feel like kids became my life, every thing revolved around them. I felt like there was no time, no space, no opportunity to do the activities that I once defined myself by; the things that made me, me.
I am naturally a very social, adventurous person. I love interacting with people. I love to travel, hike and experience new things. But with two toddlers it is not an easy task to get out of the house and go anywhere. I was struggling to establish my identity as a mom, and struggling to reclaim the confidence I use to have.
For me, one of the most tangible devolutions of my identity was manifest in my appearance. I was fat. I desperately wanted to lose weight, but felt too tired to exercise. But my lack of energy and scarce opportunity to do something for myself, like workout, didn’t keep me from obsessing over my physical activity (or lack thereof). There would be times, after I put the kids to bed, that I would put on a workout video and sit on the couch and watch it, but actually doing it was difficult.
I felt stuck. Stuck in the same rut for two years. But then something happened. I saw a facebook post and it changed everything.
10 weeks ago I came across a contest on Facebook by a supplement called bmiSMART. With many people applying for less than a dozen spots, simply becoming a contestant was a contest in and of itself. bmiSMART was offering an amazing opportunity for a lucky group of candidates who wanted to get healthy and strong. They would provide the chosen contestants with a personal trainer, nutritionist, social support, and an amazing weight loss supplement called I-REMOVE from the bmiSMART line of products.
I decided to apply. And a few weeks later, on my birthday, I received an amazing gift, a phone call from bmiSMART, telling me I was chosen to participate in the challenge. Simply being chosen as a contestant felt like winning.